G.E.E.R.R.A.A.M.M

once again...im stay up at the lovely nite just to finish up my lovely baby boo assignment !! can see it clearly??

IM STAYING UP FOR MY ASSIGNMENT

is that responsibility or sacrifice or punishment or forcing action to me?? yeah...a know it !! as a university student,  cant run from doing the assignment..this is my responsibility !!

so????

what else should i do...run from it???

in that case i run from it, i feel happy because i will doing it...then, far from the heart, i feel clumsy and keep thinking of it. so...is that the best way?? nope.....at all !! as ii said yesterday....im the one who love to face the problem...for me, when you face with it...u feel calm...feel easy...even thought at the 1st side u will feel uncertainty, but later....insyaallah...that feeling would slowly disappear !!

actually...im quite tension with my neighbor !! really really make me feel clumsy all the time....it is not the matter of stingy or snobbish.....it just like...ah.....i dont know how to expressed it !! u now, i have been teaching her for about 3 years since im in lower 6. at that moment, she in form 3....for me it is not wrong because form 3 subject is not that hard. then, when im been selected to the university.....so, it is hard for me to teach her. but, she sometimes keep text me asking the question. and sometime, she did ask me to teach her when my semester break. so,im still dont mind with it. what i hate about is....she lives to done other people work...especially on boy work. 

this happen to me.....at that time, aku tengah cuti semester. kan budak degree diselaraskan untuk masuk pada bukan sembilan...so masa tue aku pon kerja la. masa aku tengha sedap menghirup udara segar angin mentari yang sepoi-sepoi bahasa tue, tetibe.......

tet...tet....te..........sms masuk la !! 

nokia :  kak lin, macam mane nak cari info pasal menghargai jasa orang tua??

sony ericson : ala...ape susah...g la tanye encik gooogle !! dye kan pakar !! 

nokia : tak jumpe la...dah cari...tak tahu !!

sony ericson : x pe la...tungu akak balik kerja...nanty akak buat kan !!

nokia : okey !! :-)

so...aku pon kesian la....then, aku mintak balik kerja cepat sebab nak tolong dye. mandi cepat-cepat terus pergi rumah dye buat kerja....siap je kerja tue....terus dye kate.......that is not my work, im just helping my freind to do it...i feel pity on him because all the group member just passing the job to him !! 

WHAT????

habis......nie akak buat sape punyer kerja???

suddenly, the person come !! my gosh...i feel like want to slap that guy !! yeah...dye tak ada dosa dengan aku...tapi dye buat aku tak senang duduk siapkan kerja dye...yang jiran aku pon satu, baik sangat...kerja jantan macam tue pon nak tolong buat please la....where is our sense of thinking...cant u thinking the goodness of it??? yeah...he is your bestfreind,  but that is not the best way k !! aku punyer la berasap jer...pastue boleh pulak budak tue ajak aku pergi makan...kononnya nak belanja sebab dah tolong buat kan !! fine la....aku ikot.....aku bukan lah demad or ape......tp serius..aku tak suke kedai tue !! I HATE IT !!  yess...i do love lepak there, chill out with my bestie.....but as usual, i just go there just to drink !! if order food...for sure i wont finished it.....plus.........

demand !! 

yeah..............admit it !!   

aku sangat la tak selesa masa tue...geram pon ada....bukan nak bagi tahu awal-awal !! ih...menyusahkan hidup aku aje...budak nie.......eehhmmmmm...sabar je mak nak !! 

then tadi...yeah..she is my cousin..but why all of sudden she want to ask me be her tutor?? because they want to sit for SPM ?? hello....im do sit for it...but i dont look people around to teach me....i love study it by myself. datang je muak dah macam sengal kan...then mintak tolong aku ajar without politeness.....lagi la aku berapi kan!! dah la aku nak siapkan assignment !! ish......im not stingy okey......but..please have a respect on people....its no that when heard university had a break...oh...they are goyanggoyang badan dekat rumah !! tanya la dulu...ada kerja ker....ada beban ker.....boley tak??? ntah la...totally im tired !!! tired of pretend to be nice in front of people...this is not my world....i want to be the silent LIN like my childhood !! and free to do anything that i want......eehhhmmmm......sabar itu lah kekuatan aku !! ye...........

S.A.B.A.R

 

bunyi nyer.............SABAR !!  

got another one that i really hate about her is.....suka hati dye jer nak jual nombor aku dekat kawan-kawan dye !! ingat aku nie ape?? barang dagangan ke ape?? tolong lah...aku nie bukan budak sekolah yew yang ko boleh buat begitue...aku nie manusia yang mahu meningkat dewasa....jadi...please have a respect on me !! or else...ask me 1st.....it is hard to do??? no right...so.....apa yang susah sangat !! aku tak suka betul la....yew...memang aku berkawan dengan budak tue...tapi.....aku dah penat la nak berkawan macam nie...serius buat aku berharap...berharap sesuatu yang tak mungkin aku nak gapai !! part paling aku sakit adalah, bila aku jumpa mamat yang aku tolong dye buat karangan...boleh sombong !! bukan aku mintak di ampu or di sembah...just respect !! is that hard??? i dont think so.....

ntah la....mungkin aku terlalu sombong denga hidup aku sendir sampai aku jadi macam nie...bukan aku sesuka hati menyombong.....tapi.....that the true color of me !! snobbish...sombong...would always be by my side !! even thought ALLAH  tidak memberkati perangai ini....tapi untuk certain aspect....this is what i will do !! so...any problem with that..........................totally i feel better with it !!

oeky la...its time for me to do my assgnment....have a nice nite everyone !!